Fall♥

Well let me tell you a story 

About a girl and a boy 

He fell in love for his best friend 

When she's around, he feels nothing but joy 

But she was already broken, and it made her blind 

But she could never believe that love would ever treat her right. 

No POV. 

Justin stared at his beautiful best friend as she was sitting closely by a yellow flower with the camera in her hand. She loved photography a lot and it was her way to escape the world. He had fallen quite hard for her, and he didn't really know how to tell her. On top of that, her long term relationship with her boyfriend Carlos ended just a month ago, she was deeply in love and he hurt her. Let's just say that Carlos got this purple bruise on his face after Justin found out that he had cheated on his dear best friend Skylar.  

Skylar had told Justin just a few days ago that she swore to never fall in love ever again. She was happy with being single and having the bestest friend she could've ever asked for. She turned around and took a glance at Justin as he looked at her and they shared a moment. Something she found herself doing quite often lately. Justin walked up to her and extended his arm for her to take. "Let me show you something." He simply said and she nodded out of pure curiosity. She smiled to him and followed him to his car, she ran her hand through her light brown hair. Why was she feeling nervous? Justin smiled to Skylar as he opened the door for her. If anything went as planned, she would be his girl by the end of this day. 

But did you know that I love you? or were you not aware? 

You're the smile on my face 

And I ain't going nowhere 

I'm here to make you happy, I'm here to see you smile 

I've been wanting to tell you this for a long while. 

Justin POV. 

"Where are you taking me Jay?" She asked as we drove. I was planning to take her to our spot and finally admit my feelings for her. I know it might be risky, but I think it's worth it. "You would know me better than to ask. I'm not telling you sky." I said and chuckled. She pouted and crossed her arms in a playful manner. "You are not being funny right now Justin." She said and I chuckled again. She's such a drama queen.  

About thirty minutes later I pulled up at the parking spot and got out of the car. I ran to the other side before Skylar could open the door herself. "Always the gentleman ." She said and giggled her beautiful giggle. "Only for you" I flirted and winked at her and she blushed. "Jay, why are we at the hill?" She asked. We would only go to the Hill if either of us needed to think. If we went there together, which hardly ever happened; then we would have something important to say to each other.  

"I have something to tell you.." I trailed off.. She looked at me with questioning eyes. "Shoot, I'm all ears." She said and smiled her amazing smile. "Uhm.." I was being nervous and Skylar got a worried look on her face. "Justin, are you alright?" She asked and touched my face. "Skylar, I'm in love with you." I blurted out, well not exactly how I planned it, but at least she knows now. "You're what?" She asked shocked. "It's weird how you haven't noticed I've been in love with you, I fell a long time ago. You are the girl that makes me smile, that I want to make happy. I've been wanting to tell you this for a long while.." I said and looke down at the ground. Skylar was completely quiet.  

Who's gonna make you fall in love 

I know you got your wall wrapped on all the way around your heart 

You're not gon' be scared at all, oh my love 

But you can't fly unless your let yourself, 

You can't fly unless you let yourself fall. 

Skylar POV. 

To say I don't have a crush on Justin would be lying, but he loves me? He actually love me? "Y-You l-love me?" I stuttered out. It was just a shocker that my best friend in the whole wide world was in love with me. Why would he love me? "Yes." Justin answered and touched my face. "I'm deeply in love with you beautiful. And I promise you that you should let yourself fall as well." I just looked up to his eyes. "Let myself fall?" I asked. "To be quite honest, if love never made you blind with Carlos, then maybe I'd make a move earlier. I know for a fact that you love me as well, you just have to let yourself fall." he said, and he was speaking the truth. I did love Justin, I've been in love with him since forever, but seeing as he never asked me out or never gave me signals that he was interested in me in that way, I went out with Carlos. The worse decision of my life.  

Well I can tell you're afraid of what this might do 

Cause we got such an amazing friendship and that you don't wanna lose 

Well I don't wanna lose it either 

I don't think I can stay sitting around while you're hurting babe. 

Justin POV. 

"It's just that Justin.. We got such an amazing friendship. I don't want to lose it." Skylar said and sighed. "Babe, listen to me. I don't wanna to lose it either.  But us being us, I know that we'll never lose our amazing friendship. The main thing in a relationship is that you can trust the person you love like a best friend. And I don't want to see you getting hurt by other boys either. I can promise you that I'll never hurt you intentionally." I said and Skylar smiled and looked down while she blushed that adorable blush. 

Come take my hand 

Well did you know you're an angel? who forgot how to fly 

Did you know that it breaks my heart every time to see you cry 

Cause I know that it pains if he's gone every time he move over on the shoulder you crying 

And I hope by the time that i'm done with this song that I figure out. 

Skylar POV. 

"Every time you'd cry when Carlos hurt you, I wanted to wrap my arms around you and tell you that everything would be okay. It broke my heart to see you cry, but he wouldn't let me come near you." Justin said and I gasped. "He wouldn't let you come near me?" I asked. Justin didn’t talk to me at all last month and it broke my heart. I thought I had done something wrong. I was actually surprised that he showed up at my door a month ago with flowers in his hand.  

He had seen on Facebook that I had ended the relationship with Carlos and had ran down to my house to make sure I was okay. And let me tell you, the second I saw Justin.. I felt whole again. "He wouldn't let me near you, he said that if I talked to you, he'd find a way to hurt you." He said and I just gave him a hug. "It's okay Justin, now I know why you didn't talk to me last month." I said and he smiled as he tucked a hear behind my ear. "You're my angel, that forgot how to fly.. " He whispered. I didn't quite understand what he meant, but it was beautiful anyways..    

Who's gonna make you fall in love 

I know you got your wall wrapped on all the way around your heart 

You're not gon' be scared at all, oh my love 

But you can't fly unless you let yourself, 

You can't fly unless you let yourself fall.

"You're an angel that forget how to fly, but in order for you to fly again, you have to let yourself fall." He said again and I smiled and looked down. His words was so amazing, he made me feel like the old Skylar. The Skylar that was away for about three months because of a jerk face that kept hurting me every week. Yes I did love Justin, but would he catch me if I fell? 

I will catch you if you fall 

I will catch you if you fall 

I will catch you if you fall 

But if you spread your wings 

You can fly away with me 

But you can't fly unless you let yourself, 

You can't fly unless you let yourself fall. 

Justin POV. 

"I promise you beautiful. I'll catch you if you fall." I said. That convinced her, and with one step my lips met her lips. "You can fly away with me, and I'll catch you if you fall.. You can't fly unless you let yourself fall." I whispered in her ear and she smiled and looked down. "I love you Justin." She finally said, and I felt like the happiest person on the earth. "I love you too Angels, I love you so much" I said and with that I kissed her with the most loveable kiss I could possibly give her. She pulled away and blushed. "Now, would you do me the favour and become my girlfriend?" I asked and she nodded eagerly. "Of course Justin!" She said and I lifted her up and spun her around. I told you, she'd be mine by the end of the day. 

I will catch you if you fall 

I will catch you if you fall 

I will catch you if you fall 

If you spread your wings 

But you can't fly unless your let yourself

Let yourself fall 

You can fly away with me.. 

Lego House - Gracerik

He had just used her. Her trust, her powers, her feelings.

Grace was sitting alone in her room, still hitting the books to find a medicine to cure him. She hid her yawn behind the back of her hand. It was nearly sunrise. Her sleepiness was killed by her feelings though.

I'm gonna pick up the pieces and build a Lego house,if things go wrong, we can knock it down

The silent tipping on her window hardly reached her mind. A hidden urge led her gaze to the window. She nearly jumped in scare.
As she saw who it was she stood up, meaning to open up, not just her window.

My three words have two meanings,there's one thing on my mind- it's all for you

"What do you want here?" Grace whispered.
"May I come in?" Erik asked back.
"First, you're telling me why you're here."
He took a deep breath. "Ya know, I'm kind of a jerk, and what happened...what I said...I didn't mean to...I should have never let it come that far."
"You're right, so now?"
"So I just...is everything alright between us now?"
"No. If you just wanted to apologize, you would have come tomorrow. Why are you really here?" She insisted, crossing her arms.
"Uhm, I just had the feeling that...y'know..."
"Just spit it, Erik. I don't have all night."
"Okay, okay." Another deep breath. "I think you've got a problem." She tilted her head, not saying one word.
"I love you"

And it's dark in a cold December, 
but I've got you to keep me warm

"Alright, come on in and close the window, it's getting cold in here."
He did as she asked him too, but then stood a bit lost in her room. "Why'd you let me in?"
"Told you: it was getting cold in here." She wandered back to her bed, taking one of the books.

and if you're broken I will mend ya 
and keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now

"I'm the biggest idiot and I don't deserve you, but would you at least tell me the truth?"
Grace lowered her book and gave him a dangerous look. "Don't you dare asking me for the truth", she snarled at Erik. "You betrayed me, you just went to another girl instead of talking to me. You kissed her, then hurt me and at last hurt Nicky!", with every word her voice rose, she was nearly shouting now. "You're not even true to yourself! How could you ask me to be?" Reminding her parents sleeping on the other side of the wall, she whispered again: "You're right, though, I really have a problem: Falling in love with an ex-con isn't it. Falling in love with an imbecile, who doesn't use his head before talking- that is my problem."

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love

As he lowered his gaze, not able to look her in the eyes, he read the title of one of the books laying on the floor beneath her bed.

I'll pick you up when you're getting down

"Is this for me?" He took the book and walked over to Grace.
"Yeah, I don't know why I'm even doing it. Or rather- I can't believe it. At the beginning I thought you really were upset with being stuck like that, but then I realized you were just feeling sorry for yourself. That didn't change, you're still thinking nobody cares about you. When somebody does, you just can't-"

The sentences' ending was killed by a kiss.

and out of all these things I've done
I think I love you better now

"I know, I don't deserve you. But I..." Now his last words were just kissed away. He fell back on the sofa with Gwen bending over him.
"Leave it that way.",she whispered at his lips. "I, on the other hand, deserve to be happy, so just shut up for now". Without breaking the last passionate kiss for the day, she turned off the lights, and fell...for Erik again and asleep beside him... at the sofa.

I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind

"Want some breakfast?" Grace came out of the bathroom, already changed to her grey trousers, red blouse and black west. In that order Erik looked at her. Fixing her ponytail she walked past him.
"Your parents...?"
"Are already out." She stopped and turned 'round. "They must've seen you anyway. Mom and Dad never leave without checking on me."
Suddenly he felt like he couldn't breathe any more. Wasn't she embarrassed? He had a bad feeling about what her parents may think of him. Sneaking into their living room in the middle of the night. Nothing happened, of course, but he had thought they'd kill him if they ever saw the two of them like that.
Sipping at their coffees, Grace and Erik sat at the kitchen table.
She lowered her mug, seeking his gaze. "You didn't let me finish what I was about to say last night."
"Sorry." He gave her a smile. "What was it?"
She took a deep breath: "Nicky and I care for you. To him, you're like a brother and you just can't think that I don't care for you...even if it is in a different way." She locked her eyes with his. "You're not just a friend to us, you're already family. Open your eyes: You're not alone. If there is any problem, you can count on us."

I'll do it all for you in time

She sighed. How many times has she told him, that he isn't a monster, and that they'll find a way to solve his situation? Now he went out, kissing some other girl. Even worse kissing cheerleader without knowing it.
"We didn't part after the incident with the jocks. Don't you think this means something?" In a gesture of helplessness she put a hand to her temple. "Of course you don't. You're Erik. You never had thought and you never will think about what others mean by being nice to you. So you could just go ahead-"
"Grace?"
"And think no one ever cares about you-"
"Graaaaaaaaaaaaaaaceeee?"
"-but Nicky and I will-"
"GRACE!"
"What?"
"I know, you guys care about me, I just don't know how to deal with it. I mean…all my life I was on my own, so I can't get out of this by just one snap, y'know."
"But you have to talk about-"
"I'm not the type of guy who talks too much. Can cost you…" he sighed. This was harder than he thought. Grace wasn't one of the stereotypical girls, who just wants to hug a beautiful body. She wanted the whole guy. What meant he had to share his thoughts as well.
"I know." She reached over the table and laid her hand on his arm. "But I know that you've changed since we met you again. You can rely on us, not only in a fight." She saw that he was getting uncomfortable. "Well, just try it." With a smile, she stood up to put her mug in the sink. Suddenly she felt Erik standing behind her.

And out of all these things I've doneI think I love you better now

"I wouldn't have changed, if it weren't for you.", he whispered. "I thought about leaving the two of you alone, after we finished the problems. But when it came to that, I already had you in my daily routine. And I liked it." Grace turned around to see his eyes. They spoke the truth. She cupped his cheek with her hand.
If she wanted to say something, it was washed away by the feeling that overwhelmed her. As she felt his lips on hers she felt like she had found something she never knew, she was searching for. Of course, he had kissed another girl. But from now on she was the only one in his life. She didn't know why, but she just knew that fact.
Erik felt feelings he had thought lost – an indescribable warmth, like nothing could ever harm him again. Even though he was an idiot because of her cousin, she would just care how he acted towards her. Never how he looked. All of the sudden he felt her stiffening.

I'm gonna paint you by numbersand colour you in

The next moment, before he could even ask what was going on, she was running up the stairs.
A few seconds later she came back with one of the books he'd seen on her bed the evening before.
"Let me try something!" Still paralyzed by the kiss, he didn't move when she brought her hand to his forehead and mumbled latin words. A spell.
A bright light filled the kitchen and dazzled him. After he was able to open his eyes again, he looked at his hands.

if things go right we can frame it, 
and put you on a wall

They were the same as before. "It didn't work…", he said.

And it's so hard to say it but I've been here before

Grace smiled. "It did. I didn't put a spell on you, I put one on myself."
He looked confused. "As long, as you are like this, I'm the only one, who can feel the touch of your real skin." She blushed.

"Sappy, huh?"
"Yeah, a little bit." Erik smiled. "But I like it though."
With that, he kissed her again.

and I will surrender up my heartand swap it for yours

Heart Attack - Sabun

‘He's charming, handsome, funny, cute, loud, outgoing… God he’s perfect...N-No! I don’t like him that way.’ Many thoughts of my classmate, Julian Jonathan invaded my mind and they made my damn heart skip a beat. I sighed loudly as I sat up cross-legged on my king sized bed; I scratched my head while my gaze was focused on the wall.

Never put my love out on the line
Never said yes to the right guy
Never had trouble getting what I want
But when it comes to you, I’m never good enough…

It was a Saturday afternoon and i was bored out of my not-so-genius mind, all of my closest friends decided to go somewhere which meant that they couldn’t hang out with me. But I didn’t really care, I wanted to relax and lay-back this weekend due to having a stressful week at school.

But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels
Yeah you, make me so nervous,
That I just can’t hold your hand

My head turned to my blue closet and I rolled my eyes, ever since he moved to my school, I went from wearing jeans, t-shirts and hoodies to blouses, skirts and sometimes even high heels. It took a while for me to get used to the ‘girly’ clothing but I felt like it was worth it; even if my friends would ask or criticize about my new style and I'm just like "hey! I only wanted to look good for Julian."

‘Why do I keep doing this to myself?’ I thought to myself as I got up from the mess of pillows and bed sheets. ‘I don’t him that way, we’re just friends, I don’t like him that way, we’re just friends…’ I kept on repeating the same sentence over and over again…

'You were afraid of falling in love.' I thought

After seeing so many girls having they hearts broken, I became afraid of having to go through the same pain and emotions. But every time I looked at the cheerful Julian I felt like there were hundreds of butterflies fluttering in my 3D stomach.

I was looking out of the window, gazing at the blue sky and I eventually got lost in my um... thoughts. And some of those thoughts were about him…

The door opened and a figure slowly walked into my room.

“Hey Sabrina.” The black haired Jonathan said cheerfully as he poked me in the back.
I flinched at the sudden unexpected contact, gasping when I turned around to see who was standing behind me.

“Julian?!” my brown eyes widened as I looked closely at him before looking down at my current lazy outfit which consisted of a random baggy T-shirt, grey sweatpants and white socks.

“Yep, I was bored and I thought you weren’t doing anything either so I came over.” The boy chuckled as he patted my back. “Wow you’re looking pretty today!” he commented as he looked at your clothing.

I blushed brightly and I smacked him right in the arm.

“Well sorry for not looking ‘hot’ when I’m home on a Saturday!” I snapped back, regretting the aggressive voice tone I just used.

He took a step back and he raised his hands defensively, he looked somewhat scared but that goofy yet attractive grin was still on his face.

“I was just kidding… I think someone’s on her period!!!” He laughed again, raising an eyebrow at the blushing girl in front of him.

“I’m not on my- Wait who let you in here in the first place?” I didn’t have enough energy to argue with Julian, even if he was wrong about something he would always get another argument and it wasn’t even relevant to the discussion for most of the times.

“Your mother, she’s a very nice lady.” His obnoxious grin turned into a sweet smile and I couldn’t help but smile back… He could be such a sweetheart sometimes. “Anyway, do you want to go somewhere?” He asked.

I felt my heart stop beating for some seconds, did he indirectly ask me on a date or did he just want to hang out with me as friends…? I replied with a shrug since I didn’t really know what to say.

“I don’t know, I need to ask my parents first.” Was the only excuse I could come up with for the moment, part of I wanted to go out but another part felt like it was a bad idea.

As much as I loved Julian as a friend, the Jonathan was a total flirt. At school he had become very popular with the girls and he gained a reputation of a flirt and heart breaker and like always, I was the one who had to hear other girls whine and complain about Julian since I was one of his best friends. I was already reluctant to fall in love…Especially falling for a heart breaker like him.

He smiled widely as he turned his back to me.

“Do ‘ya want me to go ask them while you get dressed?” He offered as he headed towards the door, I nodded before he exited my bedroom.

I sat on my bed and I sighed quietly, that boy was so stubborn! He wouldn’t be satisfied until he got whatever he wanted. Since I didn’t have much time to pick anything out because He could walk in at any moment,so I picked a random red plaid-shirt, dark skinny pants and low cut boots and I looked down at the clothes in my hands.

“Yo Sabrina! Your parents are cool with us going out, your dad told me to bring you back before 18:00 though.” He yelled from the other end of the door.

“Okay, I’ll be out in a second!” I yelled back as I quickly changed to my better outfit. I ran to the small mirror in my room and I applied some simple makeup, a bit of mascara and pale pink lipstick.

The door unlocked and I walked out of my bedroom, running my fingers through my hair to make it look neater since I didn’t want to keep Julian waiting. He looked at me with a wide grin.

“Wow, you look beautiful Sabrina.” He said, looking down at me, due to the height difference. Julian would always say something about my looks but I would usually ignore him and try changing the topic.

Yet this time I blushed lightly and I bit lightly on my lower lip. ‘He’s just being nice Sabrina, now ignore him and let’s go.’ I nodded and replied with a “Mhm” sound before walking down the hallway and into the front door of my house.

He opened the door and he waited for me to walk out, I left my house while tucking some strands of my black hair behind my ear. The sun was shining and the sky was perfectly clear, making it a perfect day to go out for a walk at the local park.

“Want to go to the park?” He quickened his pace so he could catch up with me, he ran his fingers through his natural messy but perfect black hair as he let out a chuckle.
“Sure, sounds nice.” I smiled down at the ground.

The walk was somewhat awkward, he wasn’t saying anything and neither was I and that created a long silence, that was until I decided to break it.

“So…Are you still going out with that girl?” I asked curiously while turning your head towards him, Julian looked back at me with his stupid grin… That stupid grin that I always loved…

“Nope, I broke up with her last week.” He said calmly as if it was nothing. “She was such a bitch, always complaining that I wasn’t spending enough time with her.” he rolled his eyes as he talked about his previous ‘girlfriend’ while I listened carefully. “And she even dared to talk behind your back…” He mumbled, crossing his arms in anger.

“Oh no she didn’t” I shouted dramatically, trying to look serious for some moments but then I burst out laughing loudly. This wasn’t the first time one of Julian’s relationships went downhill because the girl’s comments about me, he was a very overprotective friend and whenever someone dared to hurt me in any way, things were about to get serious.

He sat down on the park bench and he jerked his head back, allowing the sunshine to warm him up. You sat next to the fan-of-dutch-but-not-dutch boy, staring at him discreetly.

‘Why does he have to be that perfect? I like him so much… Whenever I’m sad he’s always there to cheer me up.’ I looked down at my lap and I fiddled with the cell phone on my hands. ‘He makes me feel so alive and I always have a great time whenever I’m around him!’ I frowned sadly.

You make me glow, 
But I cover up  
Won’t let it show…

He eventually sat back up and he noticed my frown, Julian placed his palms on my cheeks and he turned my head so he could look into your brown orbs.
“What’s wrong Sab?” He asked with a hint of concern in his voice.

Puttin’ my defenses up,  
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love  
If I ever did that  
I think I’d have a heart attack.

‘I’m not in love with him. We’re just friends, I only love him as a friend…He only loves me as a friend.’

I shook my head to try avoiding looking into his pretty brown eyes even if he was stronger than me. Julian wouldn’t take a silent answer so he leaned in to make his gaze more intense and intimidating, he wouldn’t stop until he got an answer.

“I’m fine! L-Let me go idiot!” I wouldn’t usually call him names but there is a time for everything.

“It doesn’t look like it.” He replied. “Come on Sabrina tell me!” He insisted childishly, Julian Jonathan was a junior high school student and he still acted like a third grader…

Eventually I gave up, there was no point on denying my feelings for him.

The feelings are lost in my lungs
They're burning,
 I rather be numb  
And there is no one else to blame..

“Damn it Julian, it’s all your fault!” I shouted angrily as I pushed him off, the weird mixture of feelings I was going through at that moment made my heart start racing.

Julian moved back with wide eyes, he would always do that or attack me with tickles whenever he needed to get some kind of information from me but I'd tell him immediately, I never pushed him away before.

“Stop playing with my feelings. I can’t take it anymore…” At this point some tears were forming on the corners of my eyes. “You’re always flirting with other girls and then you forget about me and then they come to me, whining when you screw up or something!” It felt nice to let out all of my bottled feelings, Julian just sat there and he listened to all I had to say without interrupting.

So hard I take of in a run
I'm flying too close to the sun  
and I burst into flames

“Can’t you see that I like you?  I mean- Before you came to our school I didn’t give a shit about dressing up and relationships but we started getting closer I started acting more like a girl and I’m nervous when we’re alone together, but I always have so much fun that I end up forgetting all about it. I do this so I can look good for you Julian the Idiot, just like the girls you flirt with.”

Both of us sat there quietly, I was too embarrassed to say anything while on the other hand, Julian was reflecting on what he had just heard.

“I didn’t know… I really didn’t know Sabrina.” He said softly, it turns out Julian was very dense…

I shrugged and I scooted further away from him on the bench but he wrapped his arms around my waist and he dragged me closer to him. I squealed quietly when he did that but I didn’t fight back like I previously did.

“I’m sorry Sabrina and I never wanted to hurt you.” He looked at you with a rare serious expression on his face. “I love you...” Julian said softly.

‘No…no…No…Please tell me it’s all a joke!’

“J-Julian are you b-being serious?” I murmured shyly, I couldn't believe that he had just confessed.

"Do you think I would do this to a girl who I didn't love?" As soon as he finished his sentence he leaned forward, gently pressing his soft lips against mine.

Once he pulled away from the kiss, I shook my head, my frown quickly turned into a sweet smile. I knew him pretty well and I knew that by the tone of his voice and his actions, he was telling the truth.

"...I love you too." I whispered quietly before kissing him back. my heart was pounding out of my chest at this moment, after denying my feelings and telling myself that I would never fall in love for so long, it felt amazing to know that someone loved me back.

Sometimes taking risks is the best choice.

Puttin’ my defenses up,
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
 If I ever did that  
I think I’d have a heart attack... 

Iris - Ace

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now


"Hey," I said walking up to my best friend . "Why ya so sad?" He asked, "Is it about him?" I just looked down and nodded. "What happened?" he asked. I looked up at him letting a tear slide down my face. "I just want him so bad, I really do. I'd give anything just for one day with him," I sobbed.


"And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight"


"You really love him don't you?" He asked. I nodded. "Then...just go for it kiddo. You never know he might just like you too," he said and winked.


"And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am "


I hugged Nicky and walked away. I thought about what he said. Maybe he knew something, but I doubt it. I wasnt in the mood to be rejected today. I walked home with tears freely falling now. I had no control over it. When I got home i went to my bathroom to find what i needed. I promised myself that i'd never do this again, but I took my razor blade and sliced my wrists. The pain makes me feel better about my problems. I sighed as i watched my arms bleed. Once they stopped bleeding i went and laid down. Then my phone vibrated.


"And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive "


I looked at the text message. It was from my friend Adrian Jingga. The one that i've been in love with for three damn years. The one that made me the way I am. The text said. 

Baby, don't cry anymore. I'm here and I dont want you to cry. I love you just as much as you love me. Come downstairs.- Love Adrian."

 I deleted the text message and walked downstairs, hoping it wasnt just a dream.


"And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am "


Sure enough Adrian was there. He walked up to me and kissed me. "How did you find out?" I asked smiling. "Nick," He said. I smiled making a note in my head to call Nicky later and tell him thanks. I grabbed Adrian and kissed him again. Everything was so much better now, but...what to do about the scars on my arms..hmm...


"I just want you to know who I am"

Hey osmond, I am Grace and I dont need you to be my lover oh i mean painter of my life. this  is me.

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Love The Way You Lie - Gracerik

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that's all right, because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that's all right, because I love the way you lie,
I love the way you lie.

His POV

I can't tell you what it really is.
I can only tell you what it feels like.

She thinks she's gonna leave,but I'm never gonna let her go,always and promised.

And right now, it's a steel knife in my windpipe.
I can't breathe, but I still fight while I can fight.
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight.
 

She makes me fell like I'm flying,
Its good now but wont be for long
 

High off her love, drunk from my hate, it's like I'm huffin' paint.
And I love it, the more I suffer, I suffocate.
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me,
She fuckin' hates me, and I love it.

She makes me happy, sad, and when we fight,we always make up,it's always the same.

"Wait, where you goin'?"
"I'm leavin' you!"
"No you ain't! Come back!"
I won't let her leave,even if I did she always comes think we're crazy.
We're runnin' right back, here we go again!
It's so insane, cause when it's goin' good, it's goin' great.
I'm Superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane.
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed.

I'm at the place where its bad and good, heaven and 's no longer the saint she used to be she my my fault.

I snap, "Who's that dude? I don't even know his name."
I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again.
I guess I don't know my own strength.

Who's that ,thats 's just a friend, I should have asked.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that's all right, because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that's all right, because I love the way you lie,
I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.
You ever love somebody so much, you can barely breathe.
When you with 'em you meet, and neither one of you even know what hit 'em.
Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills used to get 'em.

We were in were falling in and out of 's not a word we use a lot.

Now you're getting fuckin' sick of lookin' at 'em.
You swore you'd never hit 'em, never do nothin' to hurt 'em.
Now you're in each other's face, spewin' venom in your words when you spit 'em.
You push pull each other's hair, scratch claw,
Hit 'em, throw 'em down, pin 'em, so lost in the moments when you're in 'em.

I'm so so sorry, for what I do but its done and we promise not to do it again,but it's lies all of it.

It's the rage that's the culprit, controls you both.
So they say it's best to go your separate ways.
Guess that they don't know ya, 'cause today, that was yesterday.
Yesterday is over, it's a different day.

It will happen say its best to go our separate stop,but we can't.

Sound like broken records playin' over,
But you promised her, next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance.
Life is no Nintendo game, but you lied again.
Now you get to watch her leave out the window.
Guess that's why they call it window pane.

We promise each other again and again.
but hey we're not in the virtual world its real and it hurts.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that's all right, because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that's all right, because I love the way you lie,
I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie. 

Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn't mean.
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine.
But your temper's just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me.

We're just as bad as each are here again,doing this again.

When it comes to love you're just as blinded.
Baby please come back! It wasn't you, baby, it was me!
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems.
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano.

Its a were in love,not so long ago but it seems such a long time ago.

All I know is I love you too much, to walk away though.
Come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk!
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball!

See this, this heart only beats for you.I can't live without you,were supposed to be together forever untill death do us part.

Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the dry wall!
Next time? There won't be no next time!
I apologize, even though I know it's lies!
No more second chances,
my apoligies are lies and I know you see right through them.

I'm tired of the games! I just want her back! I know I'm a liar!

If she ever tries to fuckin' leave again,
I'ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire!
Just gonna

I push the oil lamp to the bed and sit beside her.

The flames engulf us,
there will be no more pain or hurt for were together peacefully,
I hear the sirens but were gone already,they are to late.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that's all right, because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that's all right, because I love the way you lie,
I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie..

Jar Of Hearts - Sabun

And no I can't take one more step towards you,
'Cause all that's waiting is regret.
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most.
I learned to live half alive,
And now you want me one more time.
And who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars?
Collecting your jar of hearts and tearing love apart.
You're gonna' catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul.
So don't come back for me.
Who do you think you are?

Julian stood in the open doorway of their bedroom; his bags in hand. Slowly he glanced back at the sleeping figure on the bed, contemplating on whether to go and kiss him one last time. He felt pressure build behind his eyes as tears, yet again, threatened to stream down his cheeks before he turned his head around again, leaving his love and half of his life behind.
He locked the door, before leaving the keys and a note in front of the door, and ran to where his friend Nicky was waiting for him. After a while of driving, Nicky finally broke the heavy silence. "What did you leave on the door mat?"
As he said those words, the blonde broke down and choked on a sob that tore through him while hot tears fell. "I left a note that said, "Please don't try to find me. I can't take being your second choice anymore. Good-bye Sabrina." he choked back a sob once again and Nicky pulled over to comfort his best friend.
"He doesn't even deserve that!" Nicky thought angrily as he pulled Julian tighter in the embrace. "Julian you made the right choice. This was hurting you so much more than anyone realized. she's getting what was coming to him. she was colder than ice, and he was basically tearing your heart to pieces for the hell of it. Julian, its okay, now let's go"

I hear your asking all around,
If I am anywhere to be found.
But I have grown too strong,
To ever fall back in your arms.
And I learned to live half alive.
And now you want me one more time.
And who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars?
Collecting your jar of hearts and tearing love apart.
You're gonna' catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul.
So don't come back for me.
Who do you think you are?

That was a few months ago, and Julian had just begun to get back on his feet; he started to live his life again. He would get very upset if the "incident", or the person who caused the "incident", was mentioned, which hardly ever happened. He knew though that she had been asking all of Julian's friends about his whereabouts. Nobody ever told her and for that Julian was incredibly thankful.
But his new life was shattered when the reminder of his old one showed up out of nowhere, on a painful night at  a Ramen House. As soon as Julian saw her he knew what was going to happen, but he couldn't do anything about it.
His old lover had spotted him, and was angrily making her way over to him. "I think you've been playing hide and seek long enough Julian" his name was sneered out.
Julian took a deep, and slightly uneasy breath before replying, "Hello Sabrina."
Sabrina scoffed and sat across from Julian. "Ready to come crawling back home yet?." Sabrina smirked when she saw Julian wince.
"I'm not going back," Julian whispered feeling that inevitable pressure behind his eyes. He looked up, and met sabrina's cold black gaze before he repeated himself, a little louder this time. "I'm not coming back to you Sabrina"e She laughed dryly and leaned in closer to Julian. "Is that so? I find that hard to believe when you're still, clearly, in love with me."
Julian shut his eyes and shook his head. "No, Sabrina, I can, in all honesty, say I regret everything about us: I wish I could forget it all, our first kiss, our first date, everything. But I can't-"
"No!" Sabrina interrupted slamming her hand on the table, causing Julian to jump. "You're lying, and now you're going to get your ass up and come home with me. Right. Now." she growled before grabbing his hand and jerking him up.

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright,
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes.
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed.
'Cause you broke all your promises!
And now your back,
You don't get to get me back!
And who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars?
Collecting your jar of hearts and tearing love apart.
You're gonna' catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul.
So don't come back for me…
Don't come back at all!

he pulled back his arm, and pushed Sabrina away from him as the tears finally slid down his cheeks. "No, Sabrina! I don't care if you want me again! I told you I was done! I don't want you back! I don't want to see you again! Now leave! Don't come back for me! Don't come back at all!" Julian yelled as he raced out of the shop and went back to Nicky's apartment.
His heart was pounding frantically and he felt like his whole world had crumbled, and yet, he felt a sense of accomplishment at what he had achieved. He let out his tears as harsh sobs wrench throughout his body for a few minutes.

And who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars?
Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart.
You're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul.
So don't come back for me!
Don't come back at all!
Who do you think you are?

before he whispered "Don't come back for me, Sabrina. Don't come back at all."

wake me up when september ends - ACE and NICE

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends.

Adrian watched emotionless as they creminated the body.
A single tear trickled down his cheek.

Like my father’s come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends.

That was seven years ago.
Adrian stared at the 'promise-we'll-be-together-forever' ring.
It would never ring again.

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are.

Adrian watches the rain hitting the window.
Tears fall silently.
He wanted her by his side.

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.

Life goes on around him.
He is forever haunted of her death.
She could have been saved.
He could have saved her.

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends.

Miles away below ground, a tear falls from a full of despair face.
Nicky wished he could go back and save her.
Save her from Adrian.

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends.

Nicky looks out his window.
He could still hear the scream.
Still see the pain.

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are.

Adrian holds the gun in his hands.
The same gun that killed her.
One shot, and his pain would go away.
He would be together with his lover agian.

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends.

Nicky closed his eyes, trying to block out that day.
All the blood and pain.
He wanted to die.

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends.

Adrian threw the gun across the room.
She would have been ashamed of him.
She wouldn’t have wanted him to kill himself.

Like my father’s come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends.

Nicky stood up.
He knew he needed to move on.
The memories would fade, but the pain would stay.
He had to move on.

Wake me up when September ends.

Adrian walked out his room.
He had to move on.
The pain would stay, but he knew he couldn’t live in the past.

Wake me up when September ends.

Nicky and Adrian had finally moved on.
Grace would have been proud.
There.

You Belong With Me - Nice

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
Because she doesn't get you're humor like I do

Nicky was on the phone with his girlfriend, Lelita . Earlier today, he made a joke about CIT's and it wasn't intended towards her. It was actually pretty funny. Anyway, Lelita was yelling at him and giving him a lecture about how he shouldn't make jokes about her. He's telling her it wasn't about her and it truly wasn't. If she can't trust him, she should just break up with him!

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

Nicky threw his phone at the ground. "What happened?" I asked. "Lelita." he said, glaring at his phone. "God, I hate her." I looked at him confused. "Then why are you dating her?" I asked. He looked at me. "Because I also love her." he said, looking at a picture of her. "I wish she was more like you. You know?" I blushed at the statement. Did he just compliment me?
-
But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
she's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find
that what you're lookin' for has been here the whole time

I was at his football game. He was standing next to Lelita at half-time talking to her. They seemed to be making up over the fight last night. Why can't he see he's dating an awful girl? I glanced back at them and saw them kissing. They always fight then they always end up kissing in the end. It makes me really mad. Why can't they just break up already?
-
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Nicky smiled at me happily after the football game. "What's up?" I asked him, rolling my eyes. He's going to tell me about Lelita. "She forgave me." he said. I knew it. That's how much I know my Nicky Boo – I mean Nicky! That's how much I know about Nicky.

Walkin' the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin' to myself
Hey isn't this easy?

We walked down to his house and just sat down on the park bench in front of it. He's my neighbor. "Anyway, let's stop talking about Princess. Let's talk about something else." he smiled at me. I love his smile; it's really cute and he rarely smiles unless he's with someone he's close to. But what I find odd is that he never smiles around lelita. We thought for a second and out of nowhere Nicky yelled, "Bigmouth and her sweet pig nose!" We laughed for a bit. That's an inside joke between us.

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, What'cha doing with a girl like that?

Lelita's car pulled into his driveway. Nicky's big smile turned into a huge frown. "I gotta go, Grace." he said, jumping into Lelita's car without opening the door. "Open the door next time!" she yelled. he rolled his eyes and the next thing you know, Lelita has her lips locked with Nicky's. I'm pretty used to it because it happens a lot. they were cute until Lelita became a total snob after Julian got her into detention.
-
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

Two days later, Nicky had another football game. He texted me he was going to be late. I looked at the cheer-leading squad and could not believe my eyes. I saw Lelita making out with Felix, the most popular guy in school. I knew Lelita was evil! She doesn't deserve Nicky! I took out my phone and was about to text Nicky, but I was imagining his reaction to it. I put down my phone and just starred at them make out. Then I pictured that as Nicky and me.
-
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Nicky soon found out about Lelita and Felix. He was devastated but I was there to comfort him. "She was a jerk. She doesn't deserve a guy like you. Heck, she doesn't deserve anyone! She should just break out, have a massive break down, and have no one like her!" I ranted. That's when he told me to stop. "Just stop. I should've known better than to trust her." he sighed. "How could she do this to me?"

Standin' by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Lelita didn't know that Nicky found out about the kiss. The prom was tonight so he was going. He told me he was going to break it to her in front of everyone. That's kind of harsh but she deserves it. I got a text from him. "You going to the prom?" he texted me. "No." I texted. "Oh. Wish you could go. Cya." he texted.

Oh remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes I you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

I sat on my bed, thinking about all the times Nicky and I spent. That's when I made my decision. I will go to the prom. Just to surprise Nicky. Maybe he'll dance with me. Who knows. I took out this beautiful black dress I never wore and made my hair all pretty. I was ready to go.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

I walked into the school gym and it was packed with couples, balloons, food and drinks, decorations, and music. Just like on TV. Everyone starred at me. What was wrong? Did I overdress? Underdress? I hope not. I made my way through the crowd and saw Nicky. He turned around and looked me. His eyes widened. "Wow…" he whispered. Lelita ran over to him. "NICK!" she called. Then she saw him starring at me. "Babe, our song is on. Let's dance!" she grabbed his arm.
"No." he said. Everyone gasped. They were the most popular couple in the school. "What do you mean, 'no'?" she hissed. "I'm not going to be with you anymore. You and Felix kissed. FELIX! Seriously; I thought you were in love with me. But no! You aren't!" He growled. she clenched her teeth. "Fine! I guess I'll stay with Felix and forget about you idiot!" she stepped on his foot but he didn't feel a thing. He just started to stare at me.

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

"Grace." Duncan said, walking over to me. Everyone starred at us in shock. "All this time, I never loved her… I loved you." he said. "R-really?" I could barely speak. I was in too much shock. "Yeah, but I thought you didn't like me." he said, sadly. "Do you like me back?" I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him close.
"hey idiot, how could you not know that I've always been crushing on you? You never noticed those vibes? I've liked you forever but I could never admit it. But now's the time to tell you that I'm in love with you." I blurted out. Then I finally kissed him. It was the best moment of my 16-year old life. he broke up with Lelita. He confessed that he was in love with me. And I found out that he is my soul mate.
We separated and I gazed into his eyes. "I love you." he said, softly. "I love you too." I said, back.

 

Moments - Gracerik

Shut the door. Turn the lights off.
I get back from Grace's funeral. Everyone offers me a shoulder to cry on. But none of them understand. They don't get it.
I wanna be with you. I wanna feel your love.
I drove back to the burial grounds. I sat next to her grave. I just wanted her to come back. I wanted her here.
I wanna lay beside you. I cannot hide this. Even though I try.
I laid down next to her grave. I thought of all that we had been through. I wanted to just take a step back and be thankful for the time we had together. I felt selfish, wanting her back. But I needed her. I couldn't hide my feelings.
Heart beats harder. Time escapes me.
Its 1 o' clock. It had been 4 hours of me just lying there. It felt like barely any time.
Trembling hands touch skin. It makes this harder.
My friends comfort me. They are upset too. They try to make me forget all about it. It makes me guilty for what I am going to do
And the tears stream down my face.
I couldn't believe I lost her. I cried and cried and hoped for her return but I knew as well as everyone else, that the crying wouldn't bring her back. Nothing will at this point
If we could only have this life for one more day. If we could only turn back time.
If I could be with her again, I'd make it count. I would've made sure she knew my feelings. Made sure I never want her to leave. Made sure she wouldn't have gotten in that car. Made sure she wouldn't have left this life/
You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be my love, my heart, is breathing for this moment in time, I'll find the words to say. Before you leave me today.
I was there for her and she was for me. She kept me going. She was my everything. Now trying to explain my feelings to my friends, I couldn't. Nothing could make them understand my pain. Only she could, and I wished I could've told her everything.
Close the door. Throw the key. Don't wanna be reminded. Don't wanna be seen.
I arrive home with my friends. I lock myself in. I don't want to remember what happened. What I could've done. I don't want anyone to see me now, besides her.
Don't wanna be without you.
I look up at the sky. The stars are bright. Now I was talking to her. Telling her everything. She isn't listening. She is in a better place. But I can't live without her.
My judgement's clouded like tonight's sky
I didn't know what was going through my head. I just knew I couldn't live without her.
Hands are silent. Voice is numb. Try to scream out my lungs. It makes it harder. And the tears stream down my face.
No more trying to comfort me. The effort is gone. I'm screaming at the sky at this point. My throat hurting but I keep going. I cry harder with each word. Each cry for help. Each regret from my life.
If we could only have this life for one more day. If we could only turn back time.
If I could be with her again, I'd make it count. I would've made sure she knew my feelings. Made sure I never want her to leave. Made sure she wouldn't have gotten in that car. Made sure she wouldn't have left this life/
You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be my love, my heart, is breathing for this moment in time, I'll find the words to say. Before you leave me today.
I was there for her and she was for me. She kept me going. She was my everything. Now trying to explain my feelings to my friends, I couldn't. Nothing could make them understand my pain. Only she could, and I wished I could've told her everything.
Flashes left in my mind. Going back to the time. Playing games in the street. Kicking balls with my feet.
I stood closer and my life flashed before me. My memories with her. We were care-free and insane. We were happy and having fun. Little did we know, our fun would be interrupted by one moment in time, one mistake.
Dancing on with my toes. Standing close to the edge
I remember again our fun times. Our wonderful moments. I take another step, no regrets now.
There's a pile of my clothes at the end of your bed.
I tear off my shirt and throw it at the bed. The shirt was a gift from you. I get even closer to the ledge.
As I feel myself fall, make a joke of it all.
I finally let go. Knowing I will be with her again.
You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be my love, my heart, is breathing for this moment in time, I'll find the words to say. Before you leave me today.
I was there for her and she was for me. She kept me going. She was my everything. Now trying to explain my feelings to my friends, I couldn't. Nothing could make them understand my pain. Only she could, and I wished I could've told her everything.

my guitar♡

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Princess of China - sabun

(his P.O.V)

Once upon a time somebody ran

Somebody ran away saying 'fast as I can I got to go, I got to go'

I sat and I watched her. sabrina andx I were eatting dinner, in this big lovely mansion. Just me and her. Alone. There was no conversation, because there was nothing to say. Ever since that night, things just haven't been the same. I made a mistake, but I dont regret it. Maybe getting married isn't the best idea. But I love her, don't I? I look at her face. She was purposely advoiding direct eye contact with me. Again. Another night of prancing around each other, without saying anything. I can't live like this I got to go. This isn't healthy for me. For her. For us.

Once upon a time we fell apart

You're holding in your hands the two halves of my heart

Oh oh oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

As I watched her push her food around her plate, I remember that day. The day I caused this. I closed my eyes and leaned back in my chair as I began to rememeber.

After a hard day at work, Sabrina and I began arguing over Aoi. Aoi is and always will be my best friend. She has always been there for me. We have been friends since we were kids. I watched her grow up to be this lovely woman, but she's just a friend. Sabrina doesn't like that. Some harshful words were said and things were thrown, but nothing hurt worst when Sabrina said ' julian you need to choose me or her'. I just stared at her with glassy eyes. I watched as tears fell from her brown eyes and down her mocha skin. I was about to hurt her. I grabbed my black leather jacket and the keys to my porshe. 'If you walk out that door than I know who you're really choosing!'. I opened the door, and looked back at Sabrina one last time. She was sitting at the bottom of the spiral stairs. Her hair hung loosley around her, framing her face and continuing to flow down her shoulders. Tear stained her aqua blue blouse, and I dared to look into her blood shot eyes. They were full of sorrow. I looked foward towards my car. 'I'm sorry'. That was all I said before closing the door behind me leaving a broken Sabrina.

I sat up and looked at her sitting across from me at the dinner table. She was still avoiding my eyes. I can't take it anymore! I dont know why I came back. Maybe I should leave and this time for good. She doesn't want me here, does she even love me? I can't play house anymore, if this is real then she needs to let me know now ! 'Do you love me?'. My question pierced the deadly silence we were sitting in. Courtney just looked at me with hurt eyes.

---

(sabrina's P.O.V)

Once upon a time we burned bright

Now all we ever seem to do is fight

On and on, and on and on and on

I couldn't eat with him starring at me with those piercing brown eyes. I couldn't help but remeber all our memories. The day I first met him, our first date, the day we moved in together, the day her proposed and the day her broke my heart. Our relationship has been a rollcoaster, all because of his best friend Aoi. I dont trust him around her. I have seen the way he looks at her. It different from the way he look at me. Does he love her? Does he love me? I mean we argue over Aoi alot, but our last argument about her really hurt. I set down my fork as I forced myslef to remember.

'julian if you walk out that door than I know who your're really choosing' I yelled as julian opened the door. He looked back at me. I starred into his brown eyes, hoping that he woud turn around scoop me into his arms and make things right. Instead he apoligized and left. I was broken, but this whole time I knew. He loved Aoi. I didn't wait by the phone for him to call or stare out the window until he came back. I was done with Julian, because I knew the truth. I took my engagment ring off,set it on the fireplace and went to bed.

Once upon a time on the same side

Once upon a time on the same side in the same game

Now why d'you have to go

 Have to go and throw water on my flame?

He left me. He doesn't love me. Why is he here? Why did he do this to us ? These questions just continued to flood my head. I picked up my fork and actually took small bites of the dinner I made. I blinked and tears fell down onto the mahogony table. I quickly wiped them up before Julian could notice. Why has he done this to me? To us?

I could have been a princess, you'd be a king

Could have had a castle and worn a ring

But no ,you let me go

Julian and I were going to get married in May. Yes, I've always wanted a spring wedding. I was getting my dress custom made and everything. The plans for the wedding were going farily quickly since it was April. I was going to get married soon. I though I had everything. A husband that loved me as equally as I loved him, the house of my dreams and beautiful children. But no. He wanted Aoi. I was not getting my spring wedding, a loving husband, the house of my dreams or beautiful children. All because he loved her.

I could have been a princess, you'd be a king

Could have had a castle and worn a ring

But no,you let me go

Sometimes I can't help but think about the life I could have if he chose me. I continued to push my food around on the plate. He hasn't noticed that I haven't been wearing my engagment ring. I wasn't putting it back on. It had no meaning, no significance. So why pretend to play house, when obviously his heart isn't with me. 'Do you love me?' The first words Julian has asked me since he came back. I looked at him with hurt eyes.

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(No One's P.O.V)

You stole my star

La-la-la-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la-la

You stole my star La-la-la-la-la-la-la

"Of course I love you" Sabrina replied to his foolish question. "Then why are you not wearing your ring?". Julian watched her with cold eyes. "Because it has no significance, you dont love me Julian. You love Aoi" She was struggling to keep her voice under control she didn't want to burst into tears again infront of him. The two stared at each other. "I gave you everything. My heart, my soul, my trust! You tried, but you couldn't because you loved someone else" sabrina couldn't keep it in any longer. "I don't love her" he replied in a calm, leveled voice. "YES YOU DO, when you walked out that door! that's the message you sent me. Because if you really cared you would not have left". sabrina was now crying as she spoke.

he couldn't say anything, because she was right. he loved Aoi.

'Cause you really hurt me, no you really hurt me

'Cause you really hurt me, no you really hurt me'

He stood up from the table. Before he left Sabrina had to tell him how she felt."You really hurt me!", he turned back and looked at Sabrina's eyes. They were full of hatred. "It hurts to know that the man that you love, loves someone else and you dont say that you don't  Julian. The way you watch her with admiring eyes, you have NEVER looked at me like that. I cant compete with her. I never have been able to! So why ? WHY WOULD YOU PORPOSE IF YOU DIDN'T MEAN IT?" her voice was full of complete rage. "I DID LOVE YOU BUT YOU PUSHED ME AWAY AND THAT HURT ME!". "I least I came home to you every night! Those nights when you were 'at the office', I knew you were at Aoi' s house. That's why I changed, I know all about your affair with her !" Sabrina's words continued to ring in his ears. 'She knew, all this time she knew' he thought. He felt so ashamed."When were you going to tell me?" Tears were now flowing from her face. Now he was avoiding her eyes.

'Cause you really hurt me,

oh you really hurt me, Oh-ooh-ooh

'Cause you really hurt me,

You really hurt me

she stood up from the table and walked over the the fireplace to grab the ring. he felt as if someone knocked the wind out of him. He had really hurt her. she walked back over to him and looked directly into his eyes. "The wedding is off because you hurt me too much. Certain things I can put up with, but this I cant." Sabrina no longer had tears in her eyes, she looked confident and sure of the words that were coming out of her mouth. However, Julian just looked out her confused. she walked up stairs and grabbed her bags that she packed earlier. "Where are you going?" he didn't want her to leave, he did still love her. Didn't he?. she opened the door and looked back at  him for the last time. She look at his jet-black hair that was slicked back, and then into his glassy brown eyes that were begging her to stay. " Aoi's yours, and you're the lover . Congratulations". she tossed the ring over her shoulder and left. Julian caught the ring and stared at the door that Sabrina just walked out of.